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Stella Smith's InsaneJournal:
| Friday, August 14th, 2009 | |
| 1:45 pm | I don't know why I ever bothered owning a car. This rental thing is awesome. They just let you pick one and you can drive it for a few days and if you want you can get a new one. Cagey Truck Guy and I are on our way out, seems there was a mass exodus (lol) from Nebraska. No one is entirely sure where we're going or what we're doing, but I reckon we're going to find out. I don't think Cagey Truck Guy likes my music. I'm pretty sure Cagey Truck Guy will get over it, he thinks I'm totally adorable. :-P I'm in a very chipper mood this morning. Bad things are happening all over the place, but good things are happening too. Aster, your positive outlook on shit has finally rubbed off on me. Well done. |
| Monday, June 8th, 2009 | |
| 10:28 pm | Playlist Meme-Stella's blog (in which she had bad luck shuffling my itunes) It's 11:30 PM and I'm still at work. I decided I should take a little break and just enjoy myself for a bit. Here have a playlist meme...It only asked for ten. I did fifteen. I've always been an overachiever. 1. Afternoon Delight-The Starland Vocal Band 2. Let's Dance to Joy Division-The Wombats 3. Stop Dragging My Heart Around-Tom Petty and Stevie Nicks 4. Macarena-Los Del Rio 5. Oops I Did It Again-Britney Spears 6. Calypso-John Denver 7. Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds-The Beatles 8. Les Poissons-The Little Mermaid 9. Kill the Messenger-Jacks Mannequin 10. Nobody does it Better-Carly Simon (and yes I just danced around my empty dark office singing into a stapler with this song) 11. Talk Dirty To Me-Poison 12. Because of You-Kelly Clarkson 13. Just Died In Your Arms Tonight-Journey 14. You Know I'm No Good-Amy Winehouse 15. Too Shy-Kajagoogoo |
| Tuesday, May 12th, 2009 | |
| 9:31 am | In which Stella bores the internets with her stream of consciousness Back at work yesterday, typical Monday. Thinking of taking Kung Fu. Sad cagey truck guy, getting him a present to cheer him up. Court on Thursday, totally intend on kicking ass. Have quit smoking again, replaced cigarettes with oreos. Going to be fat and happy. Went to Washington on impromptu holiday, made new friends. Batman Ryu Chun Li Ziggy Stardust Smith is awesometacular and really hilarious. Likes cagey truck guy more than me. Which is odd. Cagey Truck Guy calls him a rat. Traitors. I think they plot my demise while I'm at work. Upon my return to work my boss informed me that I had like five months of vacation time saved up and he was shocked that I only took like three days. Well...Maybe one day I'll go on a five month vacation and then they'll be sorry. Would like to see Florence. Would like to see Greece. Would also like to see Niagra Falls. Writing Bucket List. More to come on that later. Making fancy dinner tonight. Bought table cloth and everything. Candles? No candles? No I'm not trying to seduce someone. Just...Want to have fancy dinner in my jammies. |
| Thursday, April 23rd, 2009 | |
| 6:34 pm | I'm eating my feelings There are some days that I'm pretty damn sure that the world is out to get me. Those are the days that I break a heel, or step in gum, or get rear ended or get turkey when I ordered ham...Today I am pretty sure the world is out to get itself. There are very few things that I get really and truly angry about they are as follows: 1. People who mistreat children 2. People who mistreat animals 3. People who mistreat people based on unhealthy stereotypes 4. People who judge unfairly All of those things, including me stepping in gum and burning myself on the forehead with my curling iron this morning happened today. Now you would think in my line of work I see mistreatment of children on a daily basis, it's true. I hear about it, I see it, I feel their pain like no other. But I firmly believe that I am making a difference to try and stop that, I know that I can't save everyone but is there some kind of law of the universe that says I can't try? No, so I'm going to try. I am not always successful, if I could I would bring them all home and take care of every last one of them. Unfortunately I can't. So, like any healthy red blooded single 25 year old American female I have a bedroom in my two bedroom apartment that is SO READY for kids. I have a twin bed AND a crib just in case. I am ready to go when that time comes. I'm gainfully employed, I'm prepared for the challenges that come with fostering kids of any age special needs or not. I'm smart, and responsible and I am certified in all kinds of child emergencies. I'm loving, and caring and deserve the chance to give back what was given to me. I see these files come across my desk every day and I know that when God is ready to hand me someone who needs me, He will. Today? After burning my forehead, and stepping in gum I got to my office and my boss handed me a file. Another baby in a dumpster...A baby in a dumpster. He's alive, but barely. It....Infuriates me. He's in the hospital, they ask me to take over the case. Normally, I'd jump at this chance to be this child's advocate. Instead I declined, because I want to bring this child home. So I brought it up, I decided to actually start the process, just take the bull by the horns and start the process. So I'm actually starting to feel pretty good about this and my boss calls me into his office. Gives me a bullshit laundry list of reasons why this is a bad idea. "I work too many long hours" "I don't have a husband" "I'm too young" "The court is going to say no" etc etc etc etc etc. "Stella it's terrible, I know, but I'd rather have you fighting for this child than anyone else, but I don't want you to go down a road that leads to disappointment" ETC ETC ETC. So, instead of speaking up, or going ahead anyway I went to the hospital, file in hand...And met this baby. As his child advocate. Why did I give up? Because I don't want to fight the wrong fight here. I don't want to fight for my right to do things when the most important thing is that the kids in this world end up where they are wanted and loved and cared for. I know, tl;dr .... But there is more to the story. If you've hung in there this long you might be asking yourself "But Stella! What about the animals?" Well...On my way home tonight I saw something I likewise dislike: Random puppy abuse. I won't go into details. But.....  This is either: Champ Ziggy Stardust Roscoe Batman Cooper Scruffy Harry Potter Lestat Mayhem Time to start voting, internet. Sorry Cagey Truck Guy, we have a new roommie. |
| Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009 | |
| 12:00 am | An experiment in SPAM/SMUT/S'MORES and SOCKS Spam Okay the first thing I want to get out of the way is that I have been compiling a list of the funny subject lines I get in my spam folder. Why? Because I'm going to be 25 years old soon and like any woman my age I'm in a serious long term relationship. I'm deeply committed to my relationship with my computer. 1. STELLA We Want Your Skin! Well by all means, take it.. its not like I'm using it or anything 2. Stellaella, Small Manhood? Very small... considering I'm a girl and all 3. Don't feed the sluts! Um. Sure. No problem. 4. Who Wants Movie Star Lips in 5 Minutes? My next door neighbor. 5. Keep Your Penis Erect up to 45 Minutes or More If I had a penis, I'd be more interested in this product. 6. Refinance you home the CHRISTIAN way. Hrm. I rent, clearly I am of the Devil. Well, that's only a small sample of what I've acquired. Most importantly I look at my spam folder 99 percent of the time and think "I don't own a home...Or a penis. DELETE ALL." Smut Okay. So I've been reading smut lately. And not like your nice normal every day quivering loins and ripped bodices smut. That might almost be less embarrassing. Paranormal/Supernatural smut. Like mermaids giving blow jobs, smut. I have a book sitting right here BEGGING me to finish it, it actually says "Demonica" on it. Apparently in this genre, the vampires aren't quite as prude as he who must not be named on my blog ever again. You know what started this? I was at the bookstore the other day looking for something respectable (big swords, small elves, manga, some kind of Marvel graphic novel that I somehow missed...You know the stuff grown women read), and instead I came across Pleasure Unbound Demonica: Book one. So I did what any normal person would do, I put it back on the shelf and went home and ordered it on Amazon.com. I read the whole thing in about a day. Now we all know that I'm so not one to talk about being a prude, I am such a prude, but seriously? This book had me hiding my head under a pillow every few minutes. So I ordered the second and third ones. Also completely worth my time. Demonica, you have my approval. Now I'm going to go re-invent myself on the internet using another name and persona because I'm pretty sure any respect I have earned in the magikal mystikal intertubes is now completely gone. S'mores Made S'mores on the patio last night in my awesome Outdoor fireplace. Cagey Truck Guy approves of my S'more making abilities. Socks I made some awesome socks last night. ( My awesome socks ) |
| Thursday, April 16th, 2009 | |
| 12:54 pm | Stella's blog is full of win... Alright so it's been a weird few days, made a new friend am teaching him to use the internet (yes, ladies and gentlemen I have made a friend who is NOT on the internet), he's pretty cool. Different, but cool. Also teaching him to play WoW which is...Hilarious to say the least. He's got better hand/eye coordination than I do so he's kicking my ass on the XBox. Work is going good, I have a few report cards that aren't up to par, but a ton of improvements. I'm back in court tomorrow all day long. I have 14 cases that are on the calendar, chances are they'll hear maybe three of them. I hate family court so much. But I will say that there is one situation that I can recommend for placement back into the home. That comes along far too rarely and I am quite excited about it. It's been a three year process of supervised visits, and I think that despite my track record of rarely recommending putting a child back into the original home...I am not some vapid bitch trying to separate a bunch of kids from their parents. Ideally it would be nice if all children could stay with their folks. That is not always the case. So, I hope that this goes well tomorrow. Also, got some weird news, can't really talk about it without sounding completely insane, it's still trying to settle in but I think that...It could be interesting. Maybe. Not sure yet. Will let you know. Been surfing lots of weird stuff today, but this by far is the weirdest... So long and thanks for all the fish |
| Wednesday, April 8th, 2009 | |
| 10:07 am | The Sacrifical Virgin ( If I had wings like a dove there's times I'd fly away ) |
